I had a slight epiphany today. My life lacks focus. It lacks the element of surprise, and it lacks stimulation. I set my alarm at 6:00 every morning, hit snooze at least twice, and then make the big decision on whether to wash my hair or throw it up in a bun. Now that I've cut it all off, that decision has changed to one of washing the hair vs. spraying more product in it and running a curling iron through it to make it presentable.
My job is not much better. I have a great job. I get paid well. I'm bored out of my skull. I work ten times faster than everyone else and can do in 2 days what it takes others a week or more to do. I'm not bragging...it's the honest truth, and its not necessarily a good thing. This is something I will work on with my manager...to expand my duties, and to look for new opportunities within the company.
Home life? Well, its just me and my dog in a cramped two bedroom duplex. The lack of a boyfriend, a rather recent development, is not near as important to me right now as getting into my own place. I have too much stuff, too little room, and I make too much money to not take advantage of this market right now.
This blog is being set up to address something bigger than this. A few years ago, I joined Weight Watchers to lose weight....and for the past year I've been stuck at around 40 pounds lost. Just 3 weeks ago, I went back up over 180, which I adamantly declared I would NEVER do again. Oh well. I join challenges online, I drop out after three days. I recommit to veganism, then I eat a piece of grilled fish for dinner two days later. I'm tired of failing and being tired, of letting myself down and living in stagnation.
So, while I'm sure I'll post and vent about everything under the sun here, my goal is to document this summer (and probably fall, winter, spring) and my successes, failures and challenges on Weight Watchers.
Challenge #1 - weigh in on Friday morning!! Ack!